for those of you that were worried about my insomniac problems - i think i'm over the hump and will begin to function at a normal frequency and schedule this week. i will hopefully kick my whoppers/chips and salsa/popcorn diet and return to chicken, broccoli and assorted other healthy options. my goal for this week is to make myself like cottage cheese. we'll see.
it's a rainy day and that translates into a quiet, productive day at the studio. i'm working on helping a friend brand her bakery business, hawkeye shirt designs and re-branding our ZW things. hopefully i'll get a lot done and won't feel bad when i don't attempt coming to the office on monday. i do, however, wish i was still at home cozy in my bed watching a movie and drinking hot chocolate. my house is coming back from the crazy, messy house that it was and becoming a beautiful home again. on the agenda for tomorrow? laundry, a deep scrub to the whole house and family dinner.
with all the branding i've been working on, it of course makes my mind wander to my own brand. when i left the new york stationery show i had a huge goal of taking my own line to the show this year - now that i know that would mean i would really turn into an insomniac during wedding season in order to get all of that together, which means i won't be pushing myself to get it done this year. but it is my goal to launch the brand in the next three years. i need to take the opportunities that i have here in the ic to go back to school and keep learning about paper & the joy of stationery at the center for the book. i need to learn more about letterpress. and i should probably take some business classes.
instead of focusing on my regrets of moving home & the people that i left behind, i need to remind myself why i did move here and how much happier i have been since doing so. i can't control anyone's destiny beyond my own. yes, i do worry and care about the people down in mo - but they don't define me and i don't define them. i can cry and pray for them, but ultimately they have to want to change for themselves - not the other way around. as much as i want to shake people into reality and out of their pretend world they've created for themselves, i can't.
dashboard confessional is probably the only kind of music i can listen to all day and not get sick of because of the lyrics that relate to my life in some capacity everytime i turn them on. last night, driving home from a wonderful evening downtown filled with good wine, good food and gelato this line struck a particular chord with me:
"all our fears fall on deaf ears tonight" - i couldn't have said it better myself.
in other news - look at these fabulous invitations!
Mike and I listened to Dashboard the entire time we unpacked yesterday. :)
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